Lost

I am lost. I am alone. I'm not sure why I feel so disconnected, but I do. It has been nearly two months since my life-changing experiences in New Orleans and the Emerging Church Conference and I sense the spiritual adrenaline rush starting to wear off. I have come so long in such a short time in my journey as a Christian and yet, now, I don't know where to go.

There has been a lot of upheaval in my life these past few weeks. Final exams drained me, and now that summer has come, I am in the awkward place of not knowing what emotion to feel - with new friends leaving for the summer while old friends are returning. The people who lived out church with me over spring break are far away and I can't seem to make anyone else understand the transformation I went through.

With my fellow travelers gone until the end of August, I stand alone. No, not alone. God is with me. I want to continue the path I have begun. Up to now, I have done this as part of a group, but now, I have to do it myself. Just me, sitting down to discern my place in the world. Call it a spiritual coming-of-age. Let's see where it leads...